when it rains .

after everything was happen sekali pn . nothing can turn like before . hush . that make any better ? i don't think so . selagi perasaan tuh masih ada . tade benda yg akan berubah mcm dulu . 

i love my relationship . 3 years i trying to make it stand . tp last and finally it broken by myself . atas dasar salah kedua belah pihak . but as long as hati masih pada satu sama lain . nothing can make it seperate kn ? byak kali i'm trying to move on even hati saya tanak . and until the end of time (6/11.2010) . i'm still thinking . and last i'm decide to stay . atas permintaan ramai and atas nasihat org ramai . and atas permintaan dia jgak . even pernah ada org ckap saya tak cukup baik untuk dia . saya tak jaga hati dia . hnya dia tahu adakah saya tak jaga dia . just one thing kesilapan saya . i'm always need him beside me smpai nk text 24 hours. it's my fault. tp kami jauh . nk jmpa hnya sebulan sekali . it's enough untuk sape ² ?? for me mestilah tak ckup . but i'm trying to change .  . ada ke gurl yg tanak boyfriend dia stay ngn dia . it's that make me wrong ??

mungkin saya terlalu memuja dan saya patut berhenti memuja.

saya sentiasa fikir dia tak boleh hidup tanpa saya . even i can't read his mind . takot jgak t'PERASAN sorg ² . tp itu hati saya kata . masa i'm trying to move on . mcm ² dia terangkan . hati tanak percaya ? 3 years i'm stay with him . know him much . ada benda yg saya tahu bila saya nk percaya dan bila saya hanya boleh dengar . too much to hurt . harap ada p'akhiran atas derita ini .

take your time sayang . 

can you stay just long enough to explain ?

take these chances to turn it around

tapi sampai bila .

take my time atith .

 take my time to accept all of this .

change my attitude . 

I NEED THE ENDING

take this chances , we'll make it somehow :)

i pray the better for all of us .

but i'm MOST regret about one thing. "value of friend" . i'm not the type person who's to much loving friend until dying or whatever . tapi i'm still have a heart untuk sayang pada kawan ² . i'm not to cruel . just think it . 


maybe bagi semua org . i'm not the kind of good person . whatever  .  everybody can judge me . but everybody can't be me :) cukuplah !! i'm too tired to fight your ryhme . i can't let myself regret anymore right ! hell yeaaah ! it's such selfishness . 

p/s : tittle tade kaitan ngn post . yeah !